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Good times GREAT times never ending all the more

That wasn't me that was something else, taking over, it steered me

Oh it was YOU your friends loved, were they talking to somebody elssss??

Shut up shut up!! Your the great deciever, a parody of what I was

Wheres that excitement?! Wherd it go? We know your not boring, I'm just your friend here shamush all I ever was

AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

He threw his bardiche across the room. It clattered unceremoniously against a shelf, knocking everything of the wall to clatter on the floor.

I'm just a little guy here I can't do those things people say how could I? Im almost water. Your in control orc

I know what you are... I know what you do. You will NOT break me!

Break you? I fixed you. You were on top shamush. You took whatever you wanted whenever you wanted it was always you. Im just your means don't blame me

A perfect iron clad lie thats what you are. The daedroth that grows sheep wool. I am not so blind now you cunt I am not stupid I am not gonna let you control me

Those were the best times of your life!! Staaaaaying up for weeks you miss it you want I know you do you miss it you want it you want it YOU WANT IT YOU WANT IT!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Seamus threw his oak bed across the room. Screaming, yelling crying he hit or broke whatever. Anger sadness, lies, regret. They were all he was now.

Collapsing on the floor, sobbing choking on his snot, it made him just more the angry, more the miserable. He lay like this for hours, sometimes crying mostly screaming. His voice was hoarse, it hurt; of course, everything hurt.

Lie die why awake? The end would be better, any end, one that could make it stop. Maybe death, he could do it. Anything to end it.

Why, why...

Seamus passed out on the floor. The bottle of skooma stood on the table, full.

It had sat there for 2 days.
This post was last modified: April 9th 2013, 02:22 AM by Seamus


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Poor Seamus, going through an addiction on his very own. Nice little piece, Seamus :D




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I was wondering what sort of madness Seamus was going through with this other entity speaking to him-- but then with a single simple line all was revealed and made clear! Brilliantly done.

Addiction withdrawal can get pretty bad, and it's quite clear Seamus is going through a lot of pain both physically and mentall due to jumbled hysterical thoughts. It's all been depicted very well!


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Thanks @Triskele and @Horizon Seeker, I really appreciate that :) If you guys liked it then I know I'm on the right track.

From collecting hundreds of bottles of it in skyrim, I knew there had to be some kind of negative repercussion from consuming so much skooma.


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Wow! You really caught the grasping talons and craziness of addiction perfectly. Bravo!!! Great work, Seamus. I think any addiction can hold that kind of command over you - I know that cigarettes certainly did over me until 1995 - but substance abuse must really be the worst.

Now computer gaming ~ this is a pleasant addiction


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you sure you dont have any real life expirience youve based this on?
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(April 12th 2013, 07:15 AM)CedarLilly Wrote: Wow! You really caught the grasping talons and craziness of addiction perfectly. Bravo!!! Great work, Seamus. I think any addiction can hold that kind of command over you - I know that cigarettes certainly did over me until 1995 - but substance abuse must really be the worst.

Now computer gaming ~ this is a pleasant addiction
Thank you CedarLilly! Addictions are the devil man, you never at first realize how they latch on and such.

(April 12th 2013, 07:18 AM)Sordak Wrote: you sure you dont have any real life expirience youve based this on?
Well, she is a child of the 70's o.O


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I was wondering what was possessing him the whole story, and with just one line all was revealed. It was an interesting experience having it all make since like that, one of those 'AHA!' moments. Nice post.


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(April 12th 2013, 07:18 AM)Sordak Wrote: you sure you dont have any real life expirience youve based this on?

Why you so curious... you a cop xD

(April 16th 2013, 06:24 PM)Zupleo Wrote: I was wondering what was possessing him the whole story, and with just one line all was revealed. It was an interesting experience having it all make since like that, one of those 'AHA!' moments. Nice post.

Thanks Zupleo, appreciate it :) Ill come up with more in the future. Seamus gro-Throbb is a warrior, but that doesn't define him, not to mention storys like that are boring where he just runs through 30 people.

He has vices, scruples, and inner problems that I wished I was a better writer so I could showcase these.


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Nah only the 12 year olds are cops.
all of them.
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(April 17th 2013, 01:47 AM)Sordak Wrote: Nah only the 12 year olds are cops.
all of them.

... in Austria? I'm sorry o.O


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no. rules of the internet.
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(April 17th 2013, 02:10 AM)Sordak Wrote: no. rules of the internet.

oh like chomo chat rooms


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Hey good job man I really like it. A good addiction story is always interesting though its a battle that well really is hard to comprehend. The only thing I would say is in the ending stages of addiction when it comes down to life or death the most common phrases are. "One more time and then I can quit..." the real idea with addiction a lot of times is that well you do it to forget what you have done wrong or even to self medicate to escape whatever life is and then when you return you are overwhelmed by the idea that your dream was not what you really live kind of thing. It is a really vicious cycle and I think you did a good job. I would like to see a more in depth exploration of addiction if he is a real addict and always remember sometimes in certain cases in extreme situations people abuse something for a time and then that is the end of it. Addiction is a life long struggle that is never conquered only kept at bay. Wow I feel like I am in AA now.


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(April 17th 2013, 06:27 AM)MaxxRocker Wrote: Hey good job man I really like it. A good addiction story is always interesting though its a battle that well really is hard to comprehend. The only thing I would say is in the ending stages of addiction when it comes down to life or death the most common phrases are. "One more time and then I can quit..." the real idea with addiction a lot of times is that well you do it to forget what you have done wrong or even to self medicate to escape whatever life is and then when you return you are overwhelmed by the idea that your dream was not what you really live kind of thing. It is a really vicious cycle and I think you did a good job. I would like to see a more in depth exploration of addiction if he is a real addict and always remember sometimes in certain cases in extreme situations people abuse something for a time and then that is the end of it. Addiction is a life long struggle that is never conquered only kept at bay. Wow I feel like I am in AA now.

Wow thats a good idea. I'll apply this to situations and how he'll encounter it in real life. Thanks @MassRocker!


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